Thursday, May 13, 2010

Is there a cure for the blur?

Be happy for this moment... this moment is your life.

That quote really stuck me this morning. And got me thinking about time. Lately I wake up and go to bed, and the time in between is a bluuuurrrrrrr. No kidding. Is there a cure for the blur?

There is just so much to do and so little time. I tend to get fixated on certain things. I love those people who roll out of bed and just begin. It takes me hours to be able to approach the day. I live with a person who rises and goes.

TV on, dog fed, coffee cup in hand, sitting before the TV in all that noise planning his day as he stretches his back.

I am cloistered in my office as the sun breaks the horizon, on my second cup of coffee, ruminating. Avoiding the pain of the noise invading my ears.

Have you noticed that the newscasters have voices like a buzz saw? They do that on purpose, they want to get their point across. I have to hold my hands to my ears...they are just too buzzy. Needless to say, it's no party...

What the heck is ruminating really?
ru·mi·nate (rm-nt)

v. ru·mi·nat·ed, ru·mi·nat·ing, ru·mi·nates
1. To turn a matter over and over in the mind.
2. To chew cud.

haha... I knew I was a ruminator. My husband is a do-minator. Of the first degree. Oh you know what they say, opposites attract. I am not going to beat myself up about it.

I tend to fixate on certain things to the exclusion of others, I think that could be useful in certain situations, but I tend to be somewhat stubborn in my fixations, and my fixations are somewhat inspired by what I think ought to be the way. God says He is the way, the truth and the light. I do seek guidance daily, and I do believe in the fact that God stays near to those who believe.

So I have to trust that God takes my fruitless fixations and uses them towards something good. Because in my very physical present world I just don't see the results of my hard work coming to fruition.

I do confess them as sin sometimes, my thoughts can be useless and self indulgent, and fruitless. I love being productive, producing fruit.

I have to trust. If I go by experience I would have jumped off the roller coaster. It has just been that kind of life. Twists and turns, ups and downs. Always waiting for the other shoe to drop. Maybe because I ruminate. I should just put my shoes on quit thinking and just start walking...

But if I could sing one song to you, it would be the 'I love flannel pants' song.
 And, I do. I truly do.

I have the strangest neighbors, they are the family of whites. THEY ALL WEAR WHITE T SHIRTS ALL THE TIME. Even the women, especially the women. They wear white t-shirts all the time, men's t-shirts. These are my neighbors who call the police on everybody, but they have these little barking dogs...they are the kind of dogs whose feet stand wider at the bottom than at the shoulder...I mean I think they were bred to a drill Sargent. And they do bark and bark.

Any way, she lives alone, no dh, (no duh) so yesterday she had the fam over to shovel some gravel out of an extremely tall muscle truck so they can put up their yearly doboy swimming pool (...oh the joy of daily listening to them scream and squeal and antic about in that pool...which they set up conveniently 18 inches from our fence...)

And I noticed (as they were looking into my backyard...take a picture all ready...) that they ALL wear white men's t-shirts. There were 4 of them, 3 ladies and 1 man. They all have white bleached blond hair as well...reminiscent of the t-shirt/leggings 80's. Time travelers?

This, by the way, is a real human, not a model,
and she owns those shoes. take a look.....
What does that feel like? lol

(Maybe my neighbor's are the cure for the bluuurrrrr...
just stay stuck in an era.)

Yes I long for the alternate universe where I have an 8 foot block wall fence, filled with something that soundproofs.
Well, now that I have ruminated you...

I know you are in need of nourishment.
This sounds about lovely! Enjoy...


-1/2 cup butter, melted
-1/8 cup sugar
-2 cups graham crumbs

In a 9x13 glass pan mix together sugar and crumbs. Our melted butter over and stir together with a fork pressing moistened crumbs over the bottom of the pan. Bake in 325º oven for 5 minutes. Cool while making the filling.

-1 370 ml can of evaporated milk, chilled at least 1 hour
-1 small package lemon Jell-O (strawberry or raspberry Jell-O can be used, but omit lemon extract)
-1 cup boiling water
-1 cup white sugar
-1 8oz package cream cheese, room temp.
-2 tsp vanilla
-1/4 tsp lemon extract

Whip chilled milk until thick and frothy.
Dissolve Jell-O in boiling water and cool, but do not let it set.
Mix together sugar, cream cheese and extracts.
Combine all 3 mixtures and beat well.
Pour cheesecake mixture over crust. Cover and refrigerate until set, at least 2 hours. This can be made the day before.

And if the person who left the comment re a term paper returns, please accept my appology I think I may have deleted your comment by accident, if not, I can't locate it...blogger sometimes na na nannys me. I love comments and love to respond.

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